Changes
Assalamualaikum and hello! So if you’ve read most of my blog posts, you would know that I like to take long breaks in between some of them, and so this was one of them haha. I’m back and I don’t really know for how long, but let’s hope I’ll actually stick to posting once in a while (although no promises hehe).
I’ve been meaning to write a post on this topic for a while now, but just never got the chance to do it. That and I also think it’s a very emotional topic for me, because out of all the things that I hate, I definitely hate changes. It’s funny because some of the decisions that I’ve made so far requires a lot of changes, and I would just like to share on how I’m coping with it. Before that, my thoughts on changes? It’s tiring, it’s bothersome and it’s hurtful. I don’t know why, but growing up I fear changing, I fear my surroundings would change, the people around me would change etc… Of course that’s exactly what happened, because nothing in life stays the same. When I made the decision to study far from my family, it was not an easy one. Because that would mean a change of environment. But the course that I’m doing is something that I wanted, so even though I hated changes, it does not affect what I want. Alhamdulillah I’ve been coping pretty well up until now. That’s the thing, in life there’s nothing we can do except to accept. Honestly, it’s the Qadr of Allah swt. If something is meant to stay, then it’ll stay, if not then know that it was better for you because Allah swt wants nothing but the best for you. I went through many types of changes nowadays, and it’s very overwhelming, but Alhamdulillah I feel like I can manage it. Through changes I feel like the best thing to do is to be very positive, it’s very important actually since you can easily go through an emotional breakdown during these times. I have a very bad habit of looking at good times and thinking that this will change soon, obviously it takes a toll on me and I end up getting upset. Honestly I should take the attitude of enjoying the moments instead, no doubt things will change, but when I look back in the future, I’ll look at it as a blessing, I won’t wish to be stuck in those times again, because I’ll be busy enjoying the time I’m in. That’s what I trying to do now, that’s how I’m coping now. I’m constantly reminding myself that there will be more happy memories that will be made, and I try not to dwell on any of the old ones. Changes is something that we will experience growing up, whether we like it or not. It can be in anything, changes in feelings, changes in relationships, changes in friendships, changes in places and more. I would be lying if I said I liked the changes that were made in my life, but I just learned to accept whatever that happens as it is. Sometimes the changes made in our life can be quite aching, you might not want it, but there’s always a wisdom behind it. I want to learn to appreciate the changes happening around me, because by the end of the day, because of those changes, I am the person I am today.
Forgiveness
Assalamualaikum and Hi gais.
After a long time aku tak update hahaha. Sorry for that actually assignment bertimbun and so on (taklah tipu, malas je sebenarnya). So, harini aku nak cakap sikit pasal MAAF.
Maybe some of you say that memaafkan ni tak penting pun and kita tak perlu pun memaafkan semua orang but on a personal level, I gotta say that memaafkan orang is actually a huge part in moving on. Aku memaafkan orang sebab aku rasa tenang.
Aku selalu benci orang yang tipu aku, permainkan aku, tikam aku dari belakang and khianat aku. But then, diorang ajar aku untuk tak berharap pada manusia & bergantung pada Allah.
Yeah aku mengaku yang aku selalu jadi orang yang selalu mintak maaf even benda tu bukan salah aku. Its always happen. Most of the time. And aku selalu maafkan orang even orang tu tak mintak maaf kat aku & maybe tak rasa bersalah langsung pun. I end up simply don't even give a crap (even I say that I don't do hate but actually I just started to hate them).
But benci, sakit hati & marah takde effect apa pun kat diorang sebenarnya and benda macamni pun tak baik untuk aku sendiri. Then, aku start untuk memaafkan and leave everything to Allah.
Aku pilih untuk memaafkan even diorang tak mintak maaf. Aku nak bebaskan diri aku dari benda-benda negatif macam benci, iri hati, marah and so on. Just like i said kat atas, its not good either. I give it to Him because He is our justice and peace, then I always chose to move forward.
Thanks to my parents - no matter berapa banyak silap aku buat, they still sayangkan aku & maafkan aku. They knew that I'm growing up. Thank you for being patient and love me as much as they can. There is no love without forgiveness right?
Yes, aku pernah terbaca "kalau maaf tu mudah, semua orang akan sentiasa buat silap" well yes! but forgiveness is actually good for us.
Korang mesti pernah dengar kan "Memaafkan tapi bukan melupakan" Isnt it? Kita memaafkan orang yang buat silap dengan kita tapi kita takkan pernah lupa apa yang diorang pernah buat. No doubt.
Untuk bagi diorang second chance, thats your choice. Tapi apa yang dapat bantu korang untuk moving on dari apa yang diorang pernah buat ialah memaafkan.
Maybe you'll forgive them but kinda hope karma gets them. Whatever suit yourself!
Apa yang aku nak cakap,
Kalau kita ingat betapa singkatnya hidup ni and how soon we will be a memory for all, kita akan lebih memaafkan and takkan menyimpan sebarang dendam.
Aku memaafkan orang yang dia sendiri pun taktau dia ada buat silap sebab aku pilih untuk let it go. No worth to let them know. Aku maafkan & aku rasa tenang.
I just realised, yang memaafkan ni suatu benda yang tak dapat nak gambarkan indahnya. Tenang. Sangat tenang. And now i can breathe easier.
Till then, keep well.
Hidup kena chill. Salam sayang dari ain :)Insecurities
Insecurity ialah satu benda yang kadang kala kita tak perasan. Tapi benda tu ada. Ada terjadi di antara kita semua. Atau mungkin semua orang. Kadang benda ni boleh jadi benda yang sangat besar. Bagi impak besar pada kita. Benda ni boleh jadi dalam macam macam perkara. Example: Jerawat, pendek, gemuk, hitam etc. Benda yang boleh buat kita down. Kita rasa kita tak cukup sempurna di mata orang lain. Hilang keyakinan. Post kali ni untuk orang yang selalu "Aku harap sangat/ aku nak sangat ada rupa yang cantik, flawless nak mati & sempurna macam orang lain". "Asal aku tak macam diorang eh" "How i wish i was like them" bla bla bla. Benda ni betul. Aku pun always rasa macam ni. Aku tak nafikan. Jangan salah anggap, its okay to feel like u want to be better. Actually benda ni sangat bagus. Improve u to be the better version of u. But, kalau sebab benda ni korang asingkan diri korang dari masyarakat because of u are not like them. It is totally wrong & unacceptable! Peduli apa orang cakap. Just move forward. Aku tau, kita sekarang hidup dalam dunia di mana yang cantik & yang putih disanjung tinggi. Even perangai macam apa pun. Thats how the world is. This is the fact nowadays. Somehow most people assume yang diorang kena capai "level" tu untuk rasa diri tu normal. Aku pun termasuk dalam hal ni. Very very very low confident because of this insecurities.
Aku dalam satu pemikiran di mana aku kena flawless, have a better skin, normal height to feel beautiful. Aku rasa nak baling batu kat diri aku sendiri sebab tak reti nak bersyukur. Aku banyak habis duit untuk macam macam jenis skincare to get that flawless "things". When i was in Form 2. I started to have this acne problem. It is not just one or two pimples. Its the real acne, the cystic painful one all over my forehead & cheeks. Buat aku rasa macam aku ni spotlight yang tarik perhatian semua orang. At one point, aku pernah taknak keluar rumah langsung because of malu. Aku keluar just untuk pergi sekolah. Duduk depan cermin and tengok diri sendiri. That is when that cliche things always came out "Why i cant be like them" "When i can be flawless" "I want better skin". However, that is not the WORST part. Apa yang menambah garam pada luka ialah kata kata dari orang, sometimes the close ones. Diorang maybe ingat its just a joke. Tapi sakit dia sampai ke dalam tu haa. It hurt like crazy. It felt like you were standing at the edge of the cliff,struggling to balance yourself not to fall,hoping that someone would reach out to you and they just pushed you right to the bottom. Benda macam ni lah yang tak elok sebenarnya. It is not healthy, they have to go. Kita kena ubah cara ni. Jangan biar diorang bawak kau into the dark place di mana kau start pikir macam macam pasal diri kau. Apa yang kurang dalam diri kau. All the insecurities came out. Mind you, some people go into depression because of this!!
Kalau orang tinggalkan kau because of your physical imperfections, biarkan diorang pergi. You don't need that kind of human being in your life. Aku selalu berada dalam kalangan orang orang yang macamni. And its broke me too much. Little did u know? Bila orang lagi kisah pasal cacat cela yang ada kat muka kau than what you have in your soul. Diorang bukan untuk kau. Bear in mind. You can get better, tapi perangai & mentaliti manusia macam tu belum tentu can be better. Everyone can changed, ya i know. Itu pun kalau diorang nak ubah diri diorang. I think they have to go through some hardcore cleansing and brain washing! Hahahahahahaha
Ada sesetengah orang yang mungkin dalam keadaan di mana tengah hancur because of someone that u really love just left. Or you are simply hurt or just feeling hopeless about whatever insecurities you may have. Suatu masa, akan ada orang yang boleh terima kau seadanya. He the ones who can see the beautiful& unique you can be. Apa yang aku boleh cakap, just hang there! Be strong and keep moving forward. Terus cuba dan mencuba untuk jadi yang terbaik. You will see all the blessings behind this difficult phase unravel themselves soon insyaAllah. Percaya pada takdir Allah.
To the people out there, telling people they are fat won't let you be any skinnier, telling people they are pendek wont make u even taller, telling people how bad their skin are never make u even prettier la dey!!! telling people how bad they are won't make you any better, nitpicking and judging every single wrong doing people did won't make you a saint. Be kind,use a gentle approach. Yes you might have a good intention but that is not a good enough reason and in fact it should not be a reason to be harsh and hurt people. You never know how your words can affect other people especially when they are already vulnerable having so much in their plates. Be careful and think before you speak or now should I say think before you type? Pikir pikir kan lah. Lots of love from me.
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Changes
Assalamualaikum and hello! So if you’ve read most of my blog posts, you would know that I like to take long breaks in between some of them, and so this was one of them haha. I’m back and I don’t really know for how long, but let’s hope I’ll actually stick to posting once in a while (although no promises hehe).
I’ve been meaning to write a post on this topic for a while now, but just never got the chance to do it. That and I also think it’s a very emotional topic for me, because out of all the things that I hate, I definitely hate changes. It’s funny because some of the decisions that I’ve made so far requires a lot of changes, and I would just like to share on how I’m coping with it. Before that, my thoughts on changes? It’s tiring, it’s bothersome and it’s hurtful. I don’t know why, but growing up I fear changing, I fear my surroundings would change, the people around me would change etc… Of course that’s exactly what happened, because nothing in life stays the same. When I made the decision to study far from my family, it was not an easy one. Because that would mean a change of environment. But the course that I’m doing is something that I wanted, so even though I hated changes, it does not affect what I want. Alhamdulillah I’ve been coping pretty well up until now. That’s the thing, in life there’s nothing we can do except to accept. Honestly, it’s the Qadr of Allah swt. If something is meant to stay, then it’ll stay, if not then know that it was better for you because Allah swt wants nothing but the best for you. I went through many types of changes nowadays, and it’s very overwhelming, but Alhamdulillah I feel like I can manage it. Through changes I feel like the best thing to do is to be very positive, it’s very important actually since you can easily go through an emotional breakdown during these times. I have a very bad habit of looking at good times and thinking that this will change soon, obviously it takes a toll on me and I end up getting upset. Honestly I should take the attitude of enjoying the moments instead, no doubt things will change, but when I look back in the future, I’ll look at it as a blessing, I won’t wish to be stuck in those times again, because I’ll be busy enjoying the time I’m in. That’s what I trying to do now, that’s how I’m coping now. I’m constantly reminding myself that there will be more happy memories that will be made, and I try not to dwell on any of the old ones. Changes is something that we will experience growing up, whether we like it or not. It can be in anything, changes in feelings, changes in relationships, changes in friendships, changes in places and more. I would be lying if I said I liked the changes that were made in my life, but I just learned to accept whatever that happens as it is. Sometimes the changes made in our life can be quite aching, you might not want it, but there’s always a wisdom behind it. I want to learn to appreciate the changes happening around me, because by the end of the day, because of those changes, I am the person I am today.
Forgiveness
Assalamualaikum and Hi gais.
After a long time aku tak update hahaha. Sorry for that actually assignment bertimbun and so on (taklah tipu, malas je sebenarnya). So, harini aku nak cakap sikit pasal MAAF.
Maybe some of you say that memaafkan ni tak penting pun and kita tak perlu pun memaafkan semua orang but on a personal level, I gotta say that memaafkan orang is actually a huge part in moving on. Aku memaafkan orang sebab aku rasa tenang.
Aku selalu benci orang yang tipu aku, permainkan aku, tikam aku dari belakang and khianat aku. But then, diorang ajar aku untuk tak berharap pada manusia & bergantung pada Allah.
Yeah aku mengaku yang aku selalu jadi orang yang selalu mintak maaf even benda tu bukan salah aku. Its always happen. Most of the time. And aku selalu maafkan orang even orang tu tak mintak maaf kat aku & maybe tak rasa bersalah langsung pun. I end up simply don't even give a crap (even I say that I don't do hate but actually I just started to hate them).
But benci, sakit hati & marah takde effect apa pun kat diorang sebenarnya and benda macamni pun tak baik untuk aku sendiri. Then, aku start untuk memaafkan and leave everything to Allah.
Aku pilih untuk memaafkan even diorang tak mintak maaf. Aku nak bebaskan diri aku dari benda-benda negatif macam benci, iri hati, marah and so on. Just like i said kat atas, its not good either. I give it to Him because He is our justice and peace, then I always chose to move forward.
Thanks to my parents - no matter berapa banyak silap aku buat, they still sayangkan aku & maafkan aku. They knew that I'm growing up. Thank you for being patient and love me as much as they can. There is no love without forgiveness right?
Yes, aku pernah terbaca "kalau maaf tu mudah, semua orang akan sentiasa buat silap" well yes! but forgiveness is actually good for us.
Korang mesti pernah dengar kan "Memaafkan tapi bukan melupakan" Isnt it? Kita memaafkan orang yang buat silap dengan kita tapi kita takkan pernah lupa apa yang diorang pernah buat. No doubt.
Untuk bagi diorang second chance, thats your choice. Tapi apa yang dapat bantu korang untuk moving on dari apa yang diorang pernah buat ialah memaafkan.
Maybe you'll forgive them but kinda hope karma gets them. Whatever suit yourself!
Apa yang aku nak cakap,
Kalau kita ingat betapa singkatnya hidup ni and how soon we will be a memory for all, kita akan lebih memaafkan and takkan menyimpan sebarang dendam.
Aku memaafkan orang yang dia sendiri pun taktau dia ada buat silap sebab aku pilih untuk let it go. No worth to let them know. Aku maafkan & aku rasa tenang.
I just realised, yang memaafkan ni suatu benda yang tak dapat nak gambarkan indahnya. Tenang. Sangat tenang. And now i can breathe easier.
Till then, keep well.
Hidup kena chill. Salam sayang dari ain :)Insecurities
Insecurity ialah satu benda yang kadang kala kita tak perasan. Tapi benda tu ada. Ada terjadi di antara kita semua. Atau mungkin semua orang. Kadang benda ni boleh jadi benda yang sangat besar. Bagi impak besar pada kita. Benda ni boleh jadi dalam macam macam perkara. Example: Jerawat, pendek, gemuk, hitam etc. Benda yang boleh buat kita down. Kita rasa kita tak cukup sempurna di mata orang lain. Hilang keyakinan. Post kali ni untuk orang yang selalu "Aku harap sangat/ aku nak sangat ada rupa yang cantik, flawless nak mati & sempurna macam orang lain". "Asal aku tak macam diorang eh" "How i wish i was like them" bla bla bla. Benda ni betul. Aku pun always rasa macam ni. Aku tak nafikan. Jangan salah anggap, its okay to feel like u want to be better. Actually benda ni sangat bagus. Improve u to be the better version of u. But, kalau sebab benda ni korang asingkan diri korang dari masyarakat because of u are not like them. It is totally wrong & unacceptable! Peduli apa orang cakap. Just move forward. Aku tau, kita sekarang hidup dalam dunia di mana yang cantik & yang putih disanjung tinggi. Even perangai macam apa pun. Thats how the world is. This is the fact nowadays. Somehow most people assume yang diorang kena capai "level" tu untuk rasa diri tu normal. Aku pun termasuk dalam hal ni. Very very very low confident because of this insecurities.
Aku dalam satu pemikiran di mana aku kena flawless, have a better skin, normal height to feel beautiful. Aku rasa nak baling batu kat diri aku sendiri sebab tak reti nak bersyukur. Aku banyak habis duit untuk macam macam jenis skincare to get that flawless "things". When i was in Form 2. I started to have this acne problem. It is not just one or two pimples. Its the real acne, the cystic painful one all over my forehead & cheeks. Buat aku rasa macam aku ni spotlight yang tarik perhatian semua orang. At one point, aku pernah taknak keluar rumah langsung because of malu. Aku keluar just untuk pergi sekolah. Duduk depan cermin and tengok diri sendiri. That is when that cliche things always came out "Why i cant be like them" "When i can be flawless" "I want better skin". However, that is not the WORST part. Apa yang menambah garam pada luka ialah kata kata dari orang, sometimes the close ones. Diorang maybe ingat its just a joke. Tapi sakit dia sampai ke dalam tu haa. It hurt like crazy. It felt like you were standing at the edge of the cliff,struggling to balance yourself not to fall,hoping that someone would reach out to you and they just pushed you right to the bottom. Benda macam ni lah yang tak elok sebenarnya. It is not healthy, they have to go. Kita kena ubah cara ni. Jangan biar diorang bawak kau into the dark place di mana kau start pikir macam macam pasal diri kau. Apa yang kurang dalam diri kau. All the insecurities came out. Mind you, some people go into depression because of this!!
Kalau orang tinggalkan kau because of your physical imperfections, biarkan diorang pergi. You don't need that kind of human being in your life. Aku selalu berada dalam kalangan orang orang yang macamni. And its broke me too much. Little did u know? Bila orang lagi kisah pasal cacat cela yang ada kat muka kau than what you have in your soul. Diorang bukan untuk kau. Bear in mind. You can get better, tapi perangai & mentaliti manusia macam tu belum tentu can be better. Everyone can changed, ya i know. Itu pun kalau diorang nak ubah diri diorang. I think they have to go through some hardcore cleansing and brain washing! Hahahahahahaha
Ada sesetengah orang yang mungkin dalam keadaan di mana tengah hancur because of someone that u really love just left. Or you are simply hurt or just feeling hopeless about whatever insecurities you may have. Suatu masa, akan ada orang yang boleh terima kau seadanya. He the ones who can see the beautiful& unique you can be. Apa yang aku boleh cakap, just hang there! Be strong and keep moving forward. Terus cuba dan mencuba untuk jadi yang terbaik. You will see all the blessings behind this difficult phase unravel themselves soon insyaAllah. Percaya pada takdir Allah.
To the people out there, telling people they are fat won't let you be any skinnier, telling people they are pendek wont make u even taller, telling people how bad their skin are never make u even prettier la dey!!! telling people how bad they are won't make you any better, nitpicking and judging every single wrong doing people did won't make you a saint. Be kind,use a gentle approach. Yes you might have a good intention but that is not a good enough reason and in fact it should not be a reason to be harsh and hurt people. You never know how your words can affect other people especially when they are already vulnerable having so much in their plates. Be careful and think before you speak or now should I say think before you type? Pikir pikir kan lah. Lots of love from me.
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